So perhaps someone out there might be wondering

Well, I am searching my soul and serving the Divine.

Perhaps more importantly, what does it take to begin that change within ourselves?



I have HIGH hopes and BIG dreams...




The ups and downs of life...highs and lows, one extreme to the other...always seeking, whether consciously or unconsciously, the BALANCE.

Oh yeah...there it is again...the seemingly elusive concept of Balance.

I had a conversation last night with a friend about relationships...

I think we are all truly looking for that Balance within ourselves...

There is a part of me that feels incomplete without someone in my life to share it with...
but I know that I have to feel whole in myself before that can truly be the right thing for me.

Do you believe in Fate? Destiny? Karma? Think things are preplanned in some way?....preplanned? nah not me...but I must say that my life can be pretty magical at times!
I do believe there is some order...some force...something keeping everything turning....pulling...attracting...oppposing...happening...
Karma is simply action...and like newton said....every action has an equal and opposite reaction....so if I rescue an injured animal, what would be the opposite reaction to that? hmmmmmmm.........
I definitely think the universe is an amazing & mysterious place filled with infinite possibilities...
Ask and you shall receive...Create your own destiny!

My day began today with a light knock at my door, which I knew had to be Natalya...or at least so I thought when I jumped up after looking at the clock and noticing that my alarm should have gone off an hour before. I opened the door and no one was there...well, I couldn't see very well because I didn't have my contacts in and I lost my glasses over a year ago, so I called to the person I saw walking down the hall, but she didn't respond because it wasn't Natalya.
I wondered if I had dreamed about her knocking...so I started to get ready because we didn't have a lot of time for the photo shoot. Then Natalya appeared and eased my mind...she did knock on my door, and had gone up to my office, assuming I was already up there...but I wasn't.
So...out came the face paints and the on went the costume and in no time I was transformed into a pretty cool looking peacock (which by the way is the national bird of India). She grabbed the camera, I grabbed the awesome huge peacock tail I made and out to the peacock cage we went. Our route took us by the windows of the 6:30 am yoga class which had already started...I wonder if that inspired the teacher to have the students try mayurasana...peacock pose...which is rather difficult if you ask me. Maybe they just chalked it up to being early in the morning so they must still be a little dreamy...but if they know me, it probably didn't surprise them much.
We set up first outside the peacock cage and filmed, but decided going in was a better idea. Thankfully, one of the peacocks stayed by me during the taping, which was PERFECT and they all made their crazy sounds which also really added to it.

WHY was I dressed like a peacock, filming inside the peacock cage you ask?

I'm entering a contest of course!!!!!!

And I'm going to win!!!!! (More details to come)

Ask and you shall receive...

We humans are amazing funny beings! Don't ya think? I really love observing myself and others on a daily basis. It feels so good when I can step back from the whole drama of things that we are taking so seriously and look at it in a different light. Is it really that serious, bad, upsetting, or frustrating? We probably wouldn't think so if we'd take a moment (on a regular basis) and just breathe! If we all only really knew what lies in the power of our breath...

"Why is life so hard?" I once asked one of my supergurus (my version of a superhero :) ) while having some energy work done in his most awesome Korean Vegan restaurant in Chicago.
He replied with, "What is your life?"
"Well...it's what I do every day, ya know like teaching crazy 5th and 6th graders, planning lessons, grading papers, paying the bills, hanging out with friends..."
He then proceeded to take both of his hands and put one over my mouth and used the other to squeeze my nose, closing off both of my nostrils.
After noticing that I couldn't breathe and having been a student of yoga for several years, I moved my mouth to speak and he removed his hands and I replied with
"OK I get it...my life is my breath."

Time for deep thoughts about that one....

His other famous quote is that "Each breath is one life. Every inhalation is saying hello and every exhalation is saying goodbye. Inhale, hello...exhale, goodbye."

So profound, yet seemingly difficult to truly grasp and hold onto in each moment of every day, especially when life's fairy dust sprinkles around you and you get caught up. It's okay though cuz you can keep coming back. To the breath that is. Or that idea. Or your mantra. Or whatever works for you to bring you back to the present moment. Cuz really, that's where it is always at. And if it is not, or should I say we are not, then where are we and WHY?

I have this habit of spending my time at "work" doing lotsa other things besides work. Yet, I somehow manage to get it all done and I do it well. Hence the fact that I am writing my very first blog during work hours. :p

So I've resisted the whole blogging,  my space, friendster thing for years now....probably because I just really haven't felt like I have extra time to create my own page where people can read about me and I can update them on what's goin on in my life. (You may have noticed that I haven't filled in any of the information about myself, but I will get to it one day...hopefully soon.)
I believe that the people whom I'd like to know all about me already do, and those that I don't know, I will encounter synchronistically in some other way. Plus, what are phones and email for anyway?
And then creeps in the other side...maybe it's not such a bad thing.
I have become much better at allowing myself to consider other possibilities when I believe strongly in something. I guess bodhi-blogging is kind of a nice way to share what's goin on with you...with the people you know and love and even those you don't. Plus, perhaps it actually saves time from having to write individual emails or make individual phone calls.
However, I really am into personalizing because I have different relationships with everyone I know...and I know a lot of people. It's tough sometimes for me to try to keep in touch with everyone. Especially since I am living at an ashram, trying to live the quiet, meditative ashram-style life where I do not have a lot of free time. The little free time I have often seems to elude me. At the same time, I really do manage to fit a lot in and get a lot done. Perhaps subconsciously I knew that if I joined one of these blogging sites, I was scared about how much time I'd be spending on the computer because I could write forever and then I wouldn't have time for everything else I want to do! I can get easily carried away and distracted and I am currently trying to find that oh so elusive and mysterious thing we call BALANCE.

By the way, who am I really explaining all of this to anyway? Ha!

Unveiled...the first insight into my normal train of thinking. A lot goes on inside of my head...and I know it does in yours too!

I still don't totally get how this all works....are people going to be searching around on here reading what I have to write or will it only be people I know who I tell about it? So much to learn...

Well gotta go to lunch and then onto a Yoga Teaching workshop with an amazing yoga teacher...Shari Friedrichsen.

Many warm fuzzies to all who do read this....

Hope you have a rainbow delicious day!